Protect vs. Express

以前因为我在FB很Active
常常把我的小情绪都写上去，特别是负面的感情事
吃什么都要PO，后来被一直被他人说和被亲戚ZAT
仿佛让外人看到我似个问题少女，非常不成熟
开始觉得我没有隐私而且我时常被讲也不开心
后来就逐渐退出面书，关闭所有事，甚至封锁了我的部落格
只留下我的亲密好朋友在我的Social Media
我在想，这样我就不会让人议论，这样我仿佛就没有问题了
这样我就好像成熟了很多。

但事实真的是这样吗？

我依然会有很多小情绪，只是我不再PO上网了
但这样的我依然是我，不代表我成熟了
反而，我好像变懦弱了。
因为我被议论纷纷给打倒了

在网络上消失是我要的吗？
存在感会随着消失吗？
Society依然会就你的Social Media去评断你的人
别人在建立自己的profile，对全世界展现自己的过人之处
我却在荧幕前为Privacy而困扰，不敢露面。
我也想发表我的想法。
但我曾纠结着，我应该怎样做?

当我们仍为Privacy而烦恼
当我们还在因为别人的comment而失去信心

我想真正的成熟便是在网络上适当的表达，而不是完全的退去。
大家都是一步步建立起来的吧？
渐渐的，大家就会看到你的东西，看到你

当然，艺术不是让所有人都理解你的Artwork

否则，你的Artwork就不再独一无二了吧

抵得过别人的举头评足才会让大家看到你的能力。

想做的，就去做。

想表现的，就去做。

没什么事可以阻止得了你。

Privacy是可以保护(Protect)的

只要以不会伤害到任何人的方式去表达自己

Photography是要表达(Express)的

让每个人从你的镜头你的照片看到你的世界

{~~ 希望这一篇可以为失落的灵魂boost confidence ，要相信自己是行的!~~~}

冷漠。爱

有一天我和朋友在商场逛街的时候，被远方一阵哭喊声引起了注意。我们走到前方看到一对母子。母亲正在和旁人说话，那个小男孩不知怎么一直大声的哭喊、呻吟，还说着些模糊不清的话，没有人听得明白。那男孩不是在闹脾气，只是在一旁静静蹲着然后持续大声的喃喃自语，像是在痛苦得表达些什么，他的妈妈却好象习惯了他的这种行为，只继续和友人在谈话。我们远远看着这对母子，想弄个究竟，后来我的朋友拉我们走开。她说： “别看了，难道你们看不出那孩子是特殊儿童吗？别看了，通常他们会受不住目光的压力，行为会更激动的，快走吧，别让人家难受了。”

我的人就这样被朋友带走了，但我的心依然停留在刚才的场景。不知道大家遇到这种情况，该怎么做才是最好的反应，但我内心不断在审视着自己，当时我没有勇气走上前去关心那孩子，安抚他的情绪，给他传达一些爱，甚至是一个简单的拥抱就好。

这就是现今社会每个人的态度，冷漠。这件小事就让我有很大的感触，我们到底应该怎么应对这种情况？有些人说:“当然要走，如果他突然疯起来对我们动粗就惨了！”，有的人抱着事不关己的态度默默得走过，或许也有其他人会像我那位朋友一样，抱着一种“别揭人伤疤”和“别在他人伤口上撒盐”的态度，为了让对方和自己的内心好过点而选择假装不知情的离开。

这社会还有爱吗？

希望这事能带给你一些启发和领悟，我们能够做些什么让这社会更有爱，更温暖？我们常在外用餐时遇到善心人士来寻求捐款，与其皱起眉头赶对方走，不如扬起笑容和对方点头说声辛苦了。最简单的第一步，经常微笑。出外就别再低头划手机啦，抬起头对前方的人微微笑！每一次，我们的一些贴心的小动作足以让大家在这片钢骨森林里都温暖起来了。

华教

华语是我的母语， 是我永不能放弃的语言
如胡渐彪所说，是我的文化身份认同
在马来西亚，一个我热爱的国家
华语的传承是多么的不容易
但我们的祖先一代又一代的努力捍卫着
我自问 绝不能因为学习辛苦而放弃我的母语。


先前看到了某个网民留言指出我们华人口说爱国爱华语但尽是些没意义的举动。
或许他只是某个网上憎恨制造者-英语称hater 但这种情况在现实里不难发生。

华教课题中式牵扯到政治因素。
有心的政客终找机会要把华语消灭掉。
华人捍卫华语 或许会被视为不爱国，是种族主义者。

但理性的说，捍卫华人的母语真的是种族主义者吗
那么为什么马来人要学伊斯兰文呢？
那么身为一贯的马来西亚人就不需要包头巾，
因为那么种族文化啊，你包头巾显得你与其他马来西亚不融入，那你就是不爱国了吗？

多元种族的马来西亚 一向来都存在着不公平的制度
为了保护土族，为了打压异族同胞

如今政客举荐要把华语荒废是为了避免种族矛盾
华教的路走得很坎坷。

我爱我的国家，但不爱我的政府。
人民被分化，是政治的问题。

Random Thoughts

~有人快乐因为业绩上升，有人快乐因为他可以买到自己想要的东西，有人快乐因为他和同事间的人际关系得以进步。每个人对快乐的定义都不一样，但让人觉得不快乐的事都不尽相同，最普遍的就是批评抱怨。批评，责备，抱怨往往把你和快乐隔离更远，更把我们和家人朋友拖进负面关系中。以简单的方式为自己踏出与他人促进人际关系的第一步：“不批评，不责备，不抱怨。”


~虚伪的赞美是一张伪钞，用出去后反而后患无穷。赞美是真诚的，听得人也会欢喜，如果给予虚假的赞美不但伤害对方的感受，更贬低了自己的形象。据说，优秀的人不见得快乐，但快乐的人一定优秀。

~世界唯一给出去后，反而会增加的东西，就是喜悦。”。你给前方的一群10个人一个微笑，那10个人会给回你一个微笑，那么你就有10个微笑，10份喜悦了。这道数学题是不是很有趣？施比受更有福。 ^_^

~ 生活中从不缺少美好的事，缺少是我们这双发现美的眼睛。

~ 生活要取之以衡，太多太少都得不到想要的结果，过去的事你改不了，未来的事你烦不了，活在今天的方格就好。

~ 你是否记得小时的的疑问：为什么月亮总跟着我走？

长大后我们并没有特意去寻求一个答案，因为远的东西，总是不紧迫的。而远的事情就如理想和道德一样，很重要但不紧迫，不知不觉中，理想和道德也被遗忘了。远的事情不紧迫，于是“挑紧迫的事先做“逐渐成了人们做事理所当然的习惯。我们的社会很紧迫的，推动经济刻不容缓，以至文化被抛诸脑后。这是一个值得深思的想法，如果“月亮总是跟着我走”不再只是一个疑问，而是一个叮咛，一个需要把遥远的事记在心上的叮咛，那么我们就可以分辨人生重要的价值观在哪里了。

~Fear is not real.

~  有些問題讓我觉得自己像是在滾輪上的小老鼠般疲於奔波，不曾停止的跑圈圈，最後發現所需要的不過是跳出那個無限的迴圈。


 ~There's thing unlimited in this world, the galaxy, and your creativity. Explore your galaxy.

~Life is tough, but at least this mean life is not meaningless, hang in there Jun. 
Remember your first initial of everything you're doing." - note to myself.



p/s : Above all random thoughts collect in the month of March by Jun.

Creativity

things that is unlimited in the world is like the galaxy and creativity

 || explore your creativity || 

Degree Y1T1 random day

Today went to uni to submit my assignment. It's a 3D cube that represent myself. I Don't think I have impress Mr.Lim with my final work, cause he expect more from me, but I really have no idea how to make the real things out. Mr. Lim said my idea was very good, just that I didn't make my "stapler" as dominant which has fail his expectation a little. I really don't know how T.T anyway, still hope can get an A for this subject and hope Mr. Lim like my other blog post. Hehehe. Glad to know that he always like all my idea hehehe.

From this, I realized there's something for me to overcome/ improve. I like it cause it make it feel life is full of challenges, if without any challenge, you won't improve to be better, your life is boring. So next time, I wanna overcome my bad hand skill, improve my hand to work better. To draw better, to make good quality models/artworks with all my good idea. Nonetheless, I really feel like I'm born to be in creative production line, hopefully my future can work with creative production, inspire people with my work no matter front line or backstage.

Above this is a 3D cube that represent myself. First of all, it's stapler. Stapler use to combine all things with nail. I would like to combine all my family with my love. Also, I want to collect all the beautiful thing happen around the world, combine, and share to the world, just like a stapler.

Next, the 5 human represent each part of me. Start from left,
1. the Traveller, it's mean I would like to backpack Europe, meet new friend, listen their story, and spread the inspiration to people around me.
2. the Photographer, this mean I like to take photo, photography is magic, their collect moments, the picture tell the story, share the feelings. Photography can express my point of view as well.
3. The Shiner, actually I'm inspire from my little brother. He always bring joys to my family. I love it when I'm home, he will gimme a big big hug! He is like a Sun shine brighter to the plant, let them grow and influence them. I wanna be like a sun too, shine happily to everyone. Look, the glow shine to the photographer and the magnifier =)
4. The Magnifier. I would like to express that "the world is full of beauty, people are just lack of eye observation. 这世界到处都是美好，人们只是失去了发现美好的眼睛" So the magnifier can actually twist, from sad >　saw rainbow > happy. This is why I want to tell the world about all beautiful thing that ever happen, good story are meant to share heh.
5. The Writer. I always like to write, since I was young, I like to write and read, writing and reading is my inspiration, it explore my imagination, my thought and my view to the world.

Pretty like this artwork of mine, it is not perfect but this truly represent me. And this will always remind me why I'm a Media Creative student.I believe I'm on the right track now, I found myself, I'm happy with what I'm doing right now. Proud to say I'm Media Creative student, cuz I luv it.

" Life is not about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. " 

Other than that.

Was surfing on YouTube today and I'm really grateful that today Internet bring so much access to us. Without Internet, I wouldn't know so much thing out of my country. The Internet open my eye, show me how's the world look like, what is happening around the world. Really really like it. I think the Internet access is good for everyone, it's just depends how you use it. I believe the Internet, as well as the TV, bring more positive impact to the society. Parental control is important, self-discipline is important.

Seeking inspiration around myself and inspire people around me with my thoughts, words, and works. 

Ending & Starting

As this semester ending soon, everything is about to end. Leaving PJ campus, ending this blog, no more parents fetch me to PJ, and not newbies in my class anymore. But an ending meaning another starting will come.

Start with new Sungai Long campus, new driving to uni life, new semester, new other half of 2015 and new friends from new intake and other campus.

Life is good when you have something to looking forward with. We all have a hope, have goals, and have dreams. Maybe this semester have been quite hard for me, I'm very exciting for the next seater as a refreshment for myself. So I can go back to what I'm enjoying doing, go back to full time student life, and meet my foundations friend in new campus. 

Some people looking forward to move, some are not because of the fees. But what I can say is, everything bring good change and bad changes, it's just depends how you deal with it. I choose to deal with this change happily, even though I'm forced to buy a car cause impossible to ask my parents fetch me to Sungai Long from Segambut everyday, look at the bright side. I'm getting a car by my own. Bad things is I have to find money and pay my own bills, good thing is I'm become more independence right! Getting a car means I got no transport problem ANYMORE. 

This is how I deal with life changes, look at the bright side, laugh and do it. 

People

Time flies, it's already April! Like half of the year 2015 almost done. What have I did so far? I'm doing my degree first semester, have no confidence about my coursework, so I will put extra more effort in finals for sure. Study smart and manage my time wisely.

In this first sem, I have met few friends from my course. I work my assignment with these new friends. Thoughout this semester, I find it hard to do assignment with the new people. In foundation, me and my friend always have good team work, but in degree I can't find good team work.

People who I met in degree, they do not care about assignment. Some is because they are too quiet, never participate in the whole assignment, or some are just living in their own fairyland, never listen to others opinion, what even worse is some people just too cute that they given last minute suggestion or they want to make last minute changes. In foundation times, me and my group complete our assignment very early before the deadlines, everyone do their part p, giving out good quality works. I don't understand and I don't know why, In degree, group assignment seem so hard to me. I would rather pick individual assignment now.

However, I do not want to blame but we managed to complete all the assignment together as well. Nonetheless, I do miss foundation life. In next sem, I learn to pick my group mates more carefully. This is life, we get through it. Always look at the positive side, this semester have improve my EQ and I learn how to communicate, tolerate and work with the others even though we have different working style.

Learn from mistake

I always made mistake, I used to be very stubborn about the outcome, just can't get over things easily. A lot of things happen, but I've learned from it, make my mistake to a lesson.  Tha's how I get over it and improve to become better person.

I made a mistake again. On January I promised to help my cousin bro to arrange his business paper work, so we started off. At first, I have many thing to learn and my cousin bro always willing to answer me patiently. But basically it's all just online stuff, I do it at my home. Everything goes pretty well. I earn my commission and we work happily. Til recently, another cousin bro of mine look for me as a part timer too. I'm quite happy because it mean I got another job opportunity, so I quickly said that I'm in.

So this cousin bro will need me to go his company every weekend to settle all the bills and orders, it's big business, and this time I have more put effort to learn and MORE time for this job. So far everything was okay, although my learning progress is slow but we see progress too! I went to cousin's office every weekend full day, it make me no time to study. Anyway, on one weekend, me and my cousin bro were randomly chatting and he knows that I'm actually workings for another cousin bro too, he asked me to pick either one. Because he hope I can 100% focus on his work.

So I struggle a lot, and finally I made a decision. I give up his job and continue work with my first cousin bro . I feel bad for him because he put so much time on me to train me , prepare everything for me but now I have give up on him. And I know his company are lack of manpower.

I apologize to him and reject his offer, he said he already used to it. This make me feel more bad, I ask myself why would I let other person down again. I should have told him that I'm working with another cousin at the first place, so that he wouldn't have waste time on me to train me and everything. Now all his effort, time have gone.

I'm sink in deep guiltiness, I feel so sorry but not able to do anything for him. Feel bad and sad for few days, hate myself for making such mistake.

After a few days, I think agai, I should learn from this mistake . This is how I wont make the Sam mistake again. Life goes on, people move on,I hope his business can do well, and lastly I have learnt how to move on.

They All Said

Have you heard of all these interesting belief since you were born?

They all said,

If your left eye twitches, it means bad news. Right eye, good news.

Cutting nails after 9 pm is not allowed.

Only can use your thumb pointing at the moon, using other finger is not respect to God.

Don't bath straight after you have meals, you will get tummy.

Don't place your mirror in front of you sleeping bed, you will see ghost from that mirror.

Breaking a mirror mean 7 years of bad luck, accidentally breaking a mirror would mean a death to your family.

Taking picture with 3 person mean the third person will get bad luck.

Don't open umbrella in a indoor,  they believe it will attract ghost.

Don't play instruments at night, cause it will attract ghost too.

For Chinese, they all said you can't put your chopstick straight in the bowl cause it mean that bowl is ready to serve for the ghost.

I have heard so many weird belief since young. I remember one of the most funny belief is when those little kid pee at the street, their mom will ask them say "excuse me " while they pee, it's like you excuse yourself to the ghost and spirit along the street.

I can't say all theses belief is belong to religion, region, or culture. Can't deny that some of the belief is really clueless, we heard of these belief from the adults, but they never explain the reason why. Sometimes I wonder, what would happen if someone in the world just create a belief simply because he or she is in phobia. Let's say the person is fear of height, then he or she spread to the world if you are standing at a balcony, you are not allowed to look down, you can only view horizontally, if not bad luck will comes to you, at the end everyone just follow this non-sense belief for century, this might happen right? No one knows. Is it possible to say cutting nails after 9 pm is not allowed because the person is too lazy to cut so they create this belief? Again, no one knows right?

Maybe we have so many belief that no one able to explain, is because the belief is just a joke or it really have a story behind but we didn't know.

Anyway, I do practice some of the belief from my parents like only use my thumb to point at the moon, because I want to respect God. Although I don't know the reason why, but I just followed this belief since young. sounds dumb but still..follow..HAHA.

What's the most unbelievable belief you have heard of? The most ridiculous? The most funny? And the most scary one? I find it is so interesting and amazing. This is part of my childhood memories. All these weird belief made us who we are today, and made the society what is it today.

Society Culture

As you are growing up, becoming an adult meaning you have more responsibility. You have to get good grades, get high pay job, pay the bill, take care of others, buy big house, make money and being successful. Thus, being successful is define as making a lot of money. I believe this is what we learn from the society since we are being educated. Sometimes I just wish I don’t have to buy this culture. I know exactly what I want to do with my life, I have a dream.

“Hey wait, you have a dream? I have a dream too, but you know what? Every dream need money to achieve. You want to see how the reality slap on our face? HA!”

From my perspective, successful is depends on what we value and how we think about our value. We are not suppose to let the society determine those for you. Don't let the society changes you, hold on your value and your dream. I believe there’s always a way, it’s just depends on our attitude. One said, attitude is the painting of our life. You have got the right attitude, your life will be on the right track too. I keep on trying to achieve my life goals as I want to writes, take pictures, make my parents life better and go for backpack. Then I realized I need money to achieve.

“It’s okay, let’s see how far you can go. Show them your potential.” I told myself.

Starting off very aggressively, the fire is burning high, wow everything is on good progress. I realized the business is making money and then I put more effort on it. Then I sacrifice more and more time into it. Since I have more job to do, I have no more time for my interest, my dream, my goal. My life is like doing job more than doing my interest. From times to times, I started to feel lost and discourage.

I don’t know why, I’m just stuck. I just feel unhappy and don’t know what I’m doing with my life.

 I “look back” at the beginning part. Everything I did right now is for my goals, does this mean I’m still on the right track? I’m lost, but I can’t give up of my job, because I’m scared that I can’t be successful to my dream.

The world is just ruled like this, everyone is following, in order to achieve dreams you have to follow the rules too, this is the fact that you can't change. When it comes to you, you know there's a differences. You have a dream, and you need money to achieve. Just when you are making money to achieve your dream, your dream seem getting far away from you. The reality is digging you into the soil, while your dream is flying up high in the sky.

At the end, I'm still lost in this society culture.

Book review

This week I want to talk about book review. I read The Fault in Our Stars recently. TFIOS is a love story between the girl Hazel who have lungs cancer and a guy named Augustus who have cancer before, but now Augustus has lose one leg and recover from cancer. The story also talk about family, friendship and death. As I was reading book about death and I really have dilemma to finish the book, because I think at the end the book character will die and I don't wanna see them die. 

TFIOS is a very emotional book, you can see Hazel is suffer from breathing but she still trying to live hard, she like a book from writer Peter Ven Houten very much. And one day, she got a chance to visit this writer with her lover August in other country, but things doesnt go smoothly. As Hazel situation become worse. In the journey, they all learn a lot. After they return to home country, Augustus cancer is back, and then two of them have to support each other without knowing when the date will be end. This is not a cliche love story, in fact, the character know they are dying and they always talk about death, life, galaxy, family, society, even though they are just 16, but they always inspired me.

One thing that I have got inspired in this book is,

 "You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you."(quote from my favorite line)

You have the choice to allow who could hurt you. And most of the time, people are hurting themselves with self-pity and insecureness. 

I think this is because the society have lack of Love (my last post is about the caring of society). You know, without love, we are all birds with broken wings. 

One of the book character once said, 

"there's only two feeling in this world, love and fear."

Is that true? I can't say. 

Augustus fear of oblivion.He is afraid if he is dying with his cancer return, days after day, people will forget him, then he tried to do extreme thing and pretend to live a normal life.

Human fear of oblivion, as though the universe want to be noticed. 

But we all will not be remember by all the human. 

Eventually, we will forget by the people

 so why do we fear of the thing that we can't change. We cant be remember to the people forever, but we do live in our friends and family heart although we have gone. Because this is love and this is more than enough to remember.

Hazel fear of being a "grenade".
She always avoid interact with people especially her parents, because she is afraid if one day she died, the "grenade" explode, her parents cant live/move on without her. She love her family and doesnt want her family to be sad in the future, she always tried to avoid love. But I admire her for her strength towards her cancer. She understand the meaning of life, Without pain, how could we know joy.
At the end, Hazel and her parents solve the problem, and they cherish every moment that they had. I know, her parents'll always be grateful of had-having the moment with Hazel.

Some time people think, love is gone since the person is gone? No. the thing I learn from Hazel and her mom is,

we don't stop loving the person although he/she is not with us anymore. 

Love could beat oblivion, distances, times and all.

Caring the society

One day, my friend and I was shopping in the mall, suddenly a voice of crying caught our attention from a distance. We were distracted from the crying therefore we went looking around to find out what is happening. We got to the front and we saw a pair of mother and son. The mother was talking to another person, while the little boy was crying and moaning at the same time. The little boy was wasn't like little kid throwing temper in the public, in fact he seem like suffering, having trouble to express himself, he was sobbing, moaning out loud and mumbling. What makes me confuse more is that the mother have no response to her son at all, she just keep talking to her friend, seem like she have get used to this situation. We watch from afar the mother and son, trying to figure out the situation, then my friend pull me away. 

She said: "let' just go, can't you see that child is a special kid? Don't look at him, he cant take the pressure of attention, and he will become more aggressive, hurry up, don't make people feel hard."

So, my body has move away with my friend, but my heart still stays in the previous scene. I wonder have any of you encounter such a situation before? I wonder what is the best response or reaction? I cant help but keep examine myself deep inside, if only I have the courage to go forward to care for the child, taking some time for the child and send him some love, pamper his emotion or even a simple hug is more than enough.

This is today's society attitude, everyone is cold-hearted, unconcerned. Dont you see that, when people encounter this kind of situation, how would people deal with it? Some people say: "of course we leave, what if the person suddenly got fed up and harm all of us?“ , some people hold the attitude of ”I'm just gonna walk away, it's non of my business tho.",  perhaps there are other people like my friend, with "don't hurt someone with their scars" attitude, in order to let that person and himself/herself to feel better they will pretend as in they do not know anything and ready to leave in silence.

Where is the love of the society?

What can we do to make the society feel more love and heartwarming? I bet we all have encounter the situation where we having meal outside and some NPO people come and ask for donation. I tell myself, next time instead of frowned to that person, I would just smile, nod and say thank you, simple enough. Always smile. All these small action would definitely brighten up someone day. Let's warm up this society from our little caring action.

Look back

Life have been changing all the time. 2015 is a very different year of mine. I've lose my beloved grandma, my degree life have started, I had car accident, and then I'm getting a new car soon,  I have occupied for a few part time job, got myself busy with studies and working, and then now I feel my VIPs is far away from me now. It's just March, time flies and everything seem to have changed. Degree life is unavoidable busy with assignments, presentation, exam, nevertheless having few part time job on hand, my schedule is fully packed. We all know time management is always important, as I'm always trying to settle the urgent and important stuff and hopefully one day my to-to-list can be clear off. But hold on, when was my last conversation with my best friend? How's my family doing today? We are winning and losing at the same time? It's like you are earning money but you are leaving your real treasure behind?

I always remind myself to LOOK BACK. I'm not meaning that look back to the past. We don't look back to the past, because it's only make us keep struggling about the things we can't change, and then it make us couldn't move on at all. In fact, look back means look back to the initial point of your chosen path.  Look back to the initial part, why had we make such choice? Remember? Are we still on the same path? Are we heading to the wrong path unconciously?

Sometimes people need guide. We can be guidance for our own. Then, looking back is how I guide myself. Look back to the initial part make me realize how my life have changed. Look, I'm working hard for money but also I realize I'm losing my friends and family. Isn't it scary? When you have become successful but no one is beside you to share the joy of achievement. That's why I think it's good for us to look back the beginning of us, so we could make adjustment and turn back to the first path. As everyone is working hard for their family, we can't just forget or leave our family behind then buried ourselves in work. Isn't it contradict? Isn't family is the reason why you work so hard? People are lost sometimes, when we having putting effort for a long time, we have become numb, looking back to the initial part make us realize. Make some time just for your loves one, let all the work alone. Life is like riding a bicycle. To reach the destination we have to keep ourselves balance. So I said, balance your life. Balance your life with studies, career and relationships. Of course, don't wait until it's too late to hold on your important thing in your life.  Always remember what is your initial dream. At the end, even though my life had changed but me myself is still the same person who holding the same value, that's how I define success. Successful people don't just go through life, we grow trough life. =)

What colour do you see?

One day, my younger sister came to me while I was surfing net in my room. I was thought she is going to ask me some school stuff but in fact she asked me an unexpected question.

My sister ask me, " Jie, what colour do you see in this world?" 

Woah, this is such a deep and interesting question.

At first, I was surprised because my sister is the one who asked me this question.She never ask me this kind of question before, like out of nowhere. What happen to her? In fact, we often chit-chat about daily stuff like study only. I never know my sister would have such deep thought.

I stopped my work on the internet, and we started talk about the topic that she pick up.

The first thing that came to my mind is rainbow. I personally think this world is colored, the world is full of surprises, it is always depend how you view this world, they said this world is full of beauty, we just lack of the eye of observation. That's why I always seek for inspiration and motivation, and those little thing always caught me with surprise.

My sister told me, what she used to see from this world is grey color. She said, "people are so materialistic, unreal, relationship is fragile, everyone is frowning instead of smiling. I'm taking all the blame all the time, no one would try to understand me or listen to me. I rather stay in my comfort zone, forever. "

 I feel bad for her, maybe she been facing a lot of discouragement since young and misunderstanding from family and friends. When we are young, something broken in the house, the adults would never ask but directly blame on her because they think my sister is naughty kid. This is not fair. We came from a big family, the adult often compare me, my sister and the other kids together, They never appreciate of the good side of my sister, from times to times, my sister change from the happy go lucky kid to the quiet antisocial girl. I feel this is part of my responsibility too. Since I go to high school, I met more friends and I reject to play with my sister, I went out everyday and left my sister at home everyday. 

I'm not being a good sister. I feel so sorry. Sometimes, I think a person personality is really depends on  how the family raise he/she. I just feel education is not only important about knowledge but personal development too. The school, family especially parents should know how to raise your kid to be a good man,  train your kid to have more confidence, more understanding to people and kind, instead of sending them to tuition from day to night.

Last but not least, I wanna  "paint" my sister world from grey to rainbow. Now our life have changed. We use to talk about friendship, study, I take the first step to understand about her life, her perspective of everything, I ask her to join my baking day, my outing, and we talk about stupid little things. Many things happen make me realize family is always the priority.

say Thank You

 Do you say Thank You to people who had being helpful to you? Saying Thank You shows our appreciation and our gratefulness. It is not only about manners matter, but a good habit to say Thank You to people around you. 

During a travel, “Thank you” this word are frequently used, people tend to learn how to say "Thank you" in that foreign language before travel, for example Bahasa Melayu “Terima Kasih”, Tamil “Nanri”, Frenches “Merci”, Spanish “Gracias”. Why are people practicing this even before they travel?  because during their travel they can use this to communicate especially the travelers often need help from the locals. Does this mean we don't need help with our people? Are we saying Thank You to them? I'm not saying we say Thank you only when we need helps from others, the meaning of saying Thank you means we appreciate their help. People able to learn how to say Thank you in a short period of time(travel time), I bet it is not difficult to say thank you to people around us with our mother tongue. Imagine travelers smiling to ask for direction from the locals, and thank them sincerely, I’m sure the whole trip will goes smoothly, and the travels will enjoy the entire trip.

Actually, everyone should practice a habit to say Thank you to someone who have helped us, it is good to show our thankfulness and appreciation. Saying “Thank you” makes a difference. It takes less than one second to say Thank You but this magic word can definitely make your whole day and you are actually putting a smile on that person too. Even to waitress, they serve us food and provide services to us, a simple Thank You to them can makes people feel great about their job. Some people may having an attitude and say “we pay for the service, why should we say thank you? It is their job”. Honestly, basic manners is what the society really need nowadays, saying Thank you not only make us a better person but also a better society with full of love. Hopefully everyone can say Thank you to each other and appreciate our society more. Don’t take things for granted, spread positive vibes, and everyone life will be happier. Cheers! And Thank you for your time to read my blog! =)

Stages of life

Late night conversation, where we confess our point of view, our deep thoughts and what do we truly value in our life. From that, late night conversation make us learn a lot about people, make us know more about ourselves. I stay up late talk to my friend last night and the conversation make me realized that, there are different stages of life. At this age, we all are growing up. We facing many different struggle, we make a lot of important decision at this age, it is the stage where we change our mindset and eventually it change our life.

How would you feel if you find out your boyfriend been cheated on you for almost 3 years and he still pretend like nothing happen before? My friend is facing this problem recently, her boyfriend take everything for granted yet don’t feel guilty at all. Now, just one question, are you going to let go of him, set yourself free? Your answer maybe yes, maybe no. If I were you, if I was still at the adolescence stage where I believe love is everything, maybe I will forgive him and continue this relationship. Even though the friends discourage my decision, my family blame on me, the world is about to abandon me, but still all I want is just him.

But now, we all have grew up as an adult. I realized family love is irreplaceable, your family love you so much, why you want to be the one hurting yourself? No one can hurt you unless you allow them to do so. If only this kind of thing happen to me, my choice would be different. I will have enough courage to let go of that relationship and start everything new. Hopefully, my friend will face the truth, and face herself honestly.

It takes time, it takes your courage. As we grow up, we have change our mind, we should have become a better person, become a more mature person. At the different stage of life, we think differently. Life is lifelong progress. Everything happen either for a reason or a lesson. We have learnt so much in life, separation, quarrel, ups and downs, always remember what matter to you the most from the beginning till the end, and don’t spoil your priority.

Play a game

No, this is not a photoshop picture.

THIS IS LIGHT PAINTING.

Light painting is a concept that you "drawing" with light while taking shoot. Basically, the photographer is playing with the shutter speed and adjust long exposure. The first time I tried light painting with my Lumix GF-2. It's feel like I'm doing my own photography experiment.

  That was my first light painting, it's terrible that I have no idea what I just did. Thing don't always goes right at the first time. Looking at the picture, it's like telling me that I have to think of the other way round. I have to "fit in the shoes" so I started to draw reflection images with light in front of my camera. Always take a first step. Successful people don't just make great decision but also they have their courage to take every first step.

Tic Tok Tic Tok. every image took me at least 20 second, because I adjusted to longer shutter speed so that I have enough time to draw. Second try was better. Think about it, life is just like this. You fit in his/her shoes, trying to be understanding, imagine what would happen if we were in his/her situation? We could have done better than them? maybe. But we could make thing worst too. Understanding is like a master key to every relationships. With understanding, we compromise and tolerate, everyone spreading the love and care unconsciously. Just a little thought, it could change the whole world.

Slow progress but it's still a  progress. I able to draw "Jun" at the end. It was so fun, so surprising! Nevertheless, it was so confusing. However, it is a lesson. One thing I have learn from light painting is to be understanding. There's a lot we have to learn in life, beauty is everywhere, we just lack of observation. Make a change, be understanding and notice the beauty part of life from a game to do with lights.

Comic

No doubt that everyone know what is comics, it is a medium used to express idea or tell story via images, sometimes it combine with text or other visual information. To be honest, I don’t really read comics. So what’s the first thing that come to my mind when we talk about comics? MARVEL.

It’s always remind me of the Avengers when I think of Marvel comics. To me it is the greatest picture from Marvel. I adore the creative and brilliant idea from the writer, as I always wonder how they get all these idea, they hit the box offices critical successfully! A man suffers a severe chest injury during kidnapping then his captors attempt to build a weapon of mass destruction on his body, there comes the Iron Man. Next, Thor the crown prince of Asgard who exiled from his homeland to Earth and met Jane Foster the scientist. While there, Thor fight against Loki for his people and also human. In addition, Captain America, the Hulk even the peacekeeping organization S.H.I.E.L.D. Marvel put all unrelated characters into one story, all these superhero have form a team to against Loki from subjugating Earth, and it is called the Avengers.

The movie has inspired me that nothing is impossible, creativity create new thing and make new changes. Although all the superhero have different characteristics, but with one goal, they able to made it. Life have many obstacles, we deal with each of it. Success or fail, it doesn't really matter, we learn form the progress though. Keep trying, because you never know how great you can be. We face a lot of struggle as we grow up, we met a lot of temporary people, but we also met our true friends from lessons and experiences. Life is a learning process. We often feel lost between different paths, you may not have idea of your future yet, no one can forecast the future picture anyway, but all you have to do is just follow your heart and take the first step. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

Comic writer never stop trying to make interesting story in comic, so why don't we make our life interesting in reality! Life is adventure, have some fun! ;)

Cartoon

When I was young, I used to watch Digimon with my cousins. Watching cartoon was one of my best childhood entertainment at home.

As I grow up, I don't really watch cartoon anymore, except it's for my brother. Last time, my cousin watch cartoon for me, now I watch cartoon for my brother. My brother is at age 8, we are 12 years differences but we are really close in real life. You know, it's cliché to say but still, age is just a number. For me, family is always the priority.

Remember the last cartoon I watched with my brother was Doraemon. My brother like the story so much, because it's so hilarious and it is very touching. But for me, it's getting bored because I have watched that series too many times! Somehow I think it's a blessing that I can share joy moment with my loves one. It's so heartwarming when my brother look at me and he literally said that he loves me. Children from traditional culture don't express their love and caring in such way, my parents used to express love to us by "scolding us to sleep early", I feel so surprise and grateful at the same time, this make me feel like I wouldn't trade anything from this world for my family love.

Sometimes when my brother and I walking in the mall, people will look at us with that suspicious look. I bet that they have assume I'm his mother. But no one is going to care about this anyway, we live our own best life. He once said, I'm not afraid to do all the difficult thing anymore because I have learnt courage. I was totally inspired from him. No doubt that my brother is my daily doze of happiness.

Although I don't like to watch cartoon but it actually make me spent more time with my brother, we are getting close each of the day, I want to watch him grow, I want to make him happy, my family smile is my precious gift ever. Appreciate your family, the time is now, family love is irreplaceable =)