Learn from mistake

I always made mistake, I used to be very stubborn about the outcome, just can't get over things easily. A lot of things happen, but I've learned from it, make my mistake to a lesson.  Tha's how I get over it and improve to become better person.

I made a mistake again. On January I promised to help my cousin bro to arrange his business paper work, so we started off. At first, I have many thing to learn and my cousin bro always willing to answer me patiently. But basically it's all just online stuff, I do it at my home. Everything goes pretty well. I earn my commission and we work happily. Til recently, another cousin bro of mine look for me as a part timer too. I'm quite happy because it mean I got another job opportunity, so I quickly said that I'm in.

So this cousin bro will need me to go his company every weekend to settle all the bills and orders, it's big business, and this time I have more put effort to learn and MORE time for this job. So far everything was okay, although my learning progress is slow but we see progress too! I went to cousin's office every weekend full day, it make me no time to study. Anyway, on one weekend, me and my cousin bro were randomly chatting and he knows that I'm actually workings for another cousin bro too, he asked me to pick either one. Because he hope I can 100% focus on his work.

So I struggle a lot, and finally I made a decision. I give up his job and continue work with my first cousin bro . I feel bad for him because he put so much time on me to train me , prepare everything for me but now I have give up on him. And I know his company are lack of manpower.

I apologize to him and reject his offer, he said he already used to it. This make me feel more bad, I ask myself why would I let other person down again. I should have told him that I'm working with another cousin at the first place, so that he wouldn't have waste time on me to train me and everything. Now all his effort, time have gone.

I'm sink in deep guiltiness, I feel so sorry but not able to do anything for him. Feel bad and sad for few days, hate myself for making such mistake.

After a few days, I think agai, I should learn from this mistake . This is how I wont make the Sam mistake again. Life goes on, people move on,I hope his business can do well, and lastly I have learnt how to move on.